Its not like I think I have to have a boyfriend, but it could be fun, plus I just dont want my reason to not have one is because of me or because I cant get close to anyone. I dont think I'm trying to get older just getting tired of being me.I hate me and I hate who I am and how I treat people. I just dont know.... Thank you Kyle for reading my last journal entry, but I dont think I should give names, its just safer....I dont know if I really want other people to figure any of this out anyways, even if it could mean some relief because I think I can handle these problems and who knows what I would get if I had different ones....Ok I dont care if any of that makes sense because I dont want to change anything.....Who cares about prefection any more>?